Between us and you there is a
great gulf fixed: so that they
which would pass from hence to you
cannot; neither can they pass to us,
that would come from thence.
Luke 16:26
1
At
night when each dark shape in the desert
glows
in the light of its own penumbra
I
take the road by one white hand
and
lead it to a deep arroyo, a dry wash
in
which the river lives when it is home.
Stones
remain where the water dropped them
and
beneath them aged scorpions sleep
in
small hotels with no view at all.
The
sand is cool. I wonder if the river
will
be here when I need to drown.
2
We
choose from what is available and fall
in
love: anchorites with spiders, sailors
with
each other; the bleeding foot
returns
to embrace the shattered glass;
the
overdose goes in search of an addict;
and
those who are too much afraid
fall
in love with their fear.
3
I
was broken by love but I was
so
well repaired I can pass for anybody,
standing
here where a river used to be.
In
one hand my prayers, in the other the answers,
with
a great gulf fixed between them.
To
get here I dragged my shadow
over
sharp stones and felt its cuts
and
bruises. But the river was dry.
Oh
Jesus Christ
and
all my fingers losing their rings!
What
will become of me when I offer
my
soul to the Devil and he doesn’t
want
it? What will I do
when
there is no one left to betray?