i haven’t written a poem in
so long
i may have forgotten how
unless writing a poem
is like riding a bike
or swimming upstream
or loving you
it may be a habit that once
acquired
is never lost
but you say i’m foolish
of course you love me
but being loved of course
is not the same as being
loved because
or being loved despite
or being loved
if you love me why
do i feel so lonely
and why do i always wake up
alone
and why am i practicing
not having you to love
i never loved you that way