Showing posts with label sexuality. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sexuality. Show all posts

8/8/17

untitled 8 - Mira Gonzalez

it is 2:05 in the morning
your foot on the brake is preventing the car from drifting backwards
he is kissing you first deliberately
then in a lazy or confused way

you know he is trying to communicate something important
and maybe he has wanted you for a long time
but his tongue is moving around your mouth

you begin to wonder if he wants to kiss you
or if he wants to push his way through you

you can see his bedroom window from where you are standing
he is climbing over fences and unlocking them from the inside
he says ‘go up those stairs and turn right’

you swear that you would have loved him a year ago
and every day since then

you are waiting at the top of his stairs
you don’t know where to look or what to touch
you are thinking about the ‘check engine’ light in your car

you are aware of certain things while he has sex with you
helicopter noises through an open window
a bottle of blue cough syrup
street signs indicating the direction to an eastbound freeway

he is strong and gentle and you wish he was only one of those things

he is tracing his fingers across the edge of you
everything is quiet other than a barely audible sound
in the space between his arm and his shoulder

he says ‘why are you sighing so much’
you say ‘that is just how I breathe’
he says ‘you don’t want to be here’