4/14/16

"To me, she's not even human, she's some kind of a germ." - Henry Rollins

To me, she’s not even human, she’s some kind of a germ. A concoc-
tion. She is neurotic, nasty and abusive. Pathetic is a word that
springs to mind. When she is loud and drunk, it’s torture being
around her. She treats marijuana like some life preserving drug. She
is most lively when she has a chance to get fucked up. Whenever
she’s spazzing out and drooling over pot, I think to myself, “coke
whore” but I change the word “coke” to pot. She doesn’t bathe much
and sometimes the stench can be quite noxious. I don’t like being
associated with her because I see how nasty she is with people who
I work with. When she comes into a room, I either leave or try to get
out of earshot of her. I hope she goes on her painful little way and
leaves my sight. Not a bone in me hates that girl. She has managed
to turn off everyone around her. She sure did it to me. I never set out
to feel like that, no way. Now it’s at the point where it’s totally
irreversible.

4/8/16

Do Not Make Things Too Easy - Martha Baird

Do not make things too easy.
There are rocks and abysses in the mind
As well as meadows.
There are things knotty and hard: intractable.
Do not talk to me of love and understanding.
I am sick of blandishments.
I want the rock to be met by a rock.
If I am vile, and behave hideously,
Do not tell me it was just a misunderstanding.

Debt - Sara Teasdale

What do I owe to you
     Who loved me deep and long?
You never gave my spirit wings
     Nor gave my heart a song.

But oh, to him I loved,
     Who loved me not at all,
I owe the little open gate
     That led through heaven’s wall.

you fit into me - Margaret Atwood

you fit into me
like a hook into an eye

a fish hook
an open eye

4/3/16

"In the desert" - Stephen Crane

In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
Who, squatting upon the ground,
Held his heart in his hands,
And ate of it.
I said: “Is it good, friend?”
“It is bitter—bitter,” he answered;
“But I like it
Because it is bitter,
And because it is my heart.”