Are you healed or do you only
think you're healed?
I told myself
from nothing
nothing could be taken away.
But can you love anyone yet?
When I feel safe, I can love.
But will you touch anyone?
I told myself
if I had nothing
the world couldn't touch me.
In the bathtub, I examine my
body.
We're supposed to do that.
And your face too?
Your face in the mirror?
I was vigilant: when I
touched myself
I didn't feel anything.
Were you safe then?
I was never safe, even when I
was most hidden.
Even then I was waiting.
So you couldn't protect
yourself?
The absolute
erodes; the boundary, the
wall
around the self erodes.
If I was waiting I had been
invaded by time.
But do you think you're free?
I think I recognize the
patterns of my nature.
But do you think you're free?
I had nothing
and I was still changed.
Like a costume, my numbness
was taken away. Then
hunger was added.